Tuesday, 10 July 2012

Finding Form

Finding Form, Thinking About Thinking
“The creation of something new is not accomplished by the intellect but by the play instinct acting from inner necessity.  The creative mind plays with the things it loves.”
Carl Jung
As a child, at bed time, whilst waiting for sleep to descend, I would entertain myself by watching my thoughts.  I would make a note of the starting point then (try to) relax and let my mind wander.  After some minutes of this,  I would pull the brakes on my train of thought and then work my way backwards to  the point of origin.  The intention was to figure out how I started with one thought and ended up somewhere else entirely in the space of a few minutes.  It was like a contrary form of meditation. Rather than stilling the mind and focussing on the breath, I would instead focus on my thoughts and completely ignore my breathing.
Sometimes I would  also just see and feel patterns.  It is a sensation difficult to describe, a strange confluence of seeing, thinking and feeling.  I remember a kind of shaking sensation that was accompanied by a visual of  fine, black scribble.  Another version was a soft, dense, white, rubbery feeling - like biting into an eraser.  
At other times I would play a game that involved visualising the colours of numbers and letters.
I have always loved the associational journeys that the brain makes. 
I have always loved thinking about thinking.
The processes of making these paintings in a sense mirrored the circuitous routes of my thought pathways and an ever changing emotional landscape.  They underwent numerous transformations over a period of some months.  Compositions would continually shift, colours would be re-mixed and re-applied until they were exactly the right hue.  It was at times a difficult process with no certain outcome.  Many of them were initially quite complex, a layered grid of gestural and painterly marks.  Gradually these earlier layers would be covered with flat paint and the introduction of more distinct forms and geometric patterns. Seemingly random and indecisive, these actions of layering paint, of revealing and obscuring, echoed a voyage of ideas, memories and dreams.
In a sense these paintings are cerebral self portraits or snap shots of my mind in action.  They are about thought processes, decision making, questioning, remembering, day dreaming, freedom, boundaries and the linkage of ideas and sensation. 
They are about how an idea can form from something that may initially be indistinct and end up as something concrete, how the organic forms of dreaming and reverie relate to  the more structured trajectories of rational thought. 
The language of abstraction and the use of geometric pattern alongside organic forms have helped me to visually depict these somewhat nebulous processes of the mind.

Finding Form opens at Tim Olsen Gallery, Sydney on the 15th August 2012

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